Confusion

I wanted to go right but went left I wanted to go up but went down I wanted to cry but I laughed. I wanted in my life a displacement But I found myself in the circus circle. I wanted to sleep well but found awake I did not want to think but found myself thinking. I wanted them to understand me but they forced me to understand them To increase my knowledge I wanted to distribute but they forced me to conceal. I wanted to be straight but they taught me how to crook smile with a hidden dagger behind. I wanted to give them food but they threw them out closing the doors of mind. They talk but words fall like yellow foliage dry They love but this love is a bug sucks the blood, none can deny. Lie and truth, life and death, good and bad, right and wrong All mixed up with time, place and people, a total confusion. When truth is not beauty and it is confined in When falsehood is not ugly and it is spread out like perfume Then your brain burn the fuse and you are totally confused.