Parade

feel inside so lonely in crowd feel inside so happy in graveyard feel inside so sad in a party feel inside so glad in a funeral feel inside so friendly in a war feel inside so venomously in a celebration upside down turn around retreat, give up black and blue come undone regret, despair break up fall apart confuse, hesitate mess up blow up guilty, leave dig down dig deep under ground how long honestly we can stand saying not what we feel? how long truly we can insist doing not what we sense? how long surely we can continue writing not what we love? how long consciously we can still do advising not what we know? each of us isn’t an actor? don’t we act perfectly? each of us isn’t a salesman? don’t we sell cleverly? each of us isn’t a saint? don’t we preach divinely? each of us isn’t an expert? don’t we speech vigorously? each of us isn’t a clown? don’t we entertain amazingly? each of us isn’t a teaser don’t we persuade brilliantly? oh carnival oh camouflage in you, have we been staying all our life? oh soap opera oh drama stage in you, have we been living all our time? oh trade conference oh academic seminar in you, have we been loving all our wish? oh member summit oh political meeting in you, have we been spending all our day? oh cat walk oh movie screen in you, have we been celebrating all our love? oh annual festival oh bizarre ceremony in you, have we been investing all our chance? oh national talk show oh glamorous exhibition in you, have we been dedicating all our activity? do we really live in a real life or just in a parade? (dedicated to a great poet at poemhunter, James Nall)