Illicit Love

Are you lonely, my love the love of your life loves another man? Are you in pain, my love the love of your life needs the other man? Does your heart ache, my love the love of your life cannot forget that man? Do I hurt you, my love when I say to you I can't get over that man? Can you accept - my love the love of your life thinks of the other man always, all the time? No - I am not the other woman in his life - as nothing works between us... yet I keep thinking of him feel so deeply for him and yes - my love wish to marry him bed him and beget him children... like every woman does for the man she loves... Is it too much of a sin, my love to love more than one man? Tell me - my love why do I need him so much miss him every moment of my lonesome life being your wife I need the husband in him And yet - I know I cannot do without you I cannot choose him over you do I forget him and forgive myself for the sin of being in love with two men in my life? Tell me - my love how do I do this? I am directionless... feeling down and out my heart in pieces wish I could share my life with you and him. Too much for the asking I suppose... I am being avaricious and maybe impractical Tell me, my love when was love pragmatic when was love logical? When did people say love had a lot of rationale? Love was always blind blind as a bat love feels with the heart mind doesn't work And here I am, my love at your doorstep in your home beside you, in your arms loving you and yet pondering over him... Why did God give me so much pain? Why did He fill my heart with adulterous love? Why did Destiny bring me to this crossroad? Why do I have to choose between the two of you? Sometimes I feel that I could do with neither of you for both of you are so precious to me I cannot hurt one and please the other... They say: Love is pure, pristine a feeling complete devotion and adulation for the one man a woman always loves and loves forever... but what happens to the love a woman feels for the man in her life and the other man outside? Is it so sinful a feeling? Is it so detesting? Do all the women in this world love only one man through all their life? And all the men just think of only one woman: their so-called wedded wife? So many questions in mind for a heart that loves and loves and loves... the two men in a woman's life Any Answers...