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Not knowing you and the feeling of love… is this for Real? or a mere Illusion Intoxicating me… weakening me the more I try to gather strength the more I pray to God and ask: “Why Me? ” Why all over again those pangs of my “forgotten” past beckoning me? Infatuated I was with you… it grew over time I crushed it it outgrew me… And now I’m again dithering… love, lust, sex or infatuation which need would you fulfill of mine wishful thinking… lessons not learnt… You came and went once before and you are here to go again… I could do without you then and now I could do it again only if I would want to… Yet the wantonness remains the thirst undying sucking me out, inside out… My bruised heart has lost its tenderness it’s hardened over time… yet a nip from you wouldn’t take long to make it bleed again… Amen!