The Weight Of Tears

I cannot find the anger I am crushed by the sadness another senseless shooting in America another bombing in a far off land I grew up with terror in Mississippi another murder another bombing another church burning not at my doorstep not as I picked up my newspaper no death at my church but neither retribution from my god I grew up with racial wars with the war in Vietnam the martyrdom of saviors* the hatred of the ghostly mob** now I am numb to death in my grief is hopelessness I cannot find the anger I am crushed by a weight of tears ~~~~~ *Martin Luther King and Robert Kennedy. ** The KKK.