Aborted's Will (C) 7-9-2012

If you're reading this more than likely I've been sucked away Repressed from seeing God's creation on a summer day So without further ado I give this to my would be family and friends I'll make it concise so there's no fighting in the end First to my would be friends I only hope you all live well Share the love and laughter between each other not the wretched smells Keep each other close like I would if I was there with you And don't be sad when you reminisce just know my spirit's there in you Have as much fun as possible just the way that I would have it Live in the moment and with opportunities reach out and grab it You only get one life so live it the best you can Because at least you have it I'll never be able to understand Next to my wife that I might've had Who my children would've looked up to side by side with dad Or maybe I would've married a man I'd cater to every night To her I'd be the best husband or for him the greatest wife Don't grieve over my loss you'll find somebody else I feel in my mind I know how you would've felt I know how much you would've loved our family with all your heart But I'm gone from you now so there's somewhere else you'll have to start And to my children that somehow could've came out of me I'm so sorry I didn't get a chance to squeeze out at least the bottom three I would've loved you like a mother or raised you up fatherly I mean there's no say if I had any seeds but it still bothers me I apologize for not being able to raise you like a parent should But as you see my parents got rid of me, so not cut out for parenthood To my Grandparents on either side I wish we could've met I won't get that elderly warmth that some children get My grandmothers won't kiss me with lips extra wet And Grandfathers I can't move to your heart in that place you set Too bad from spendin the night to get away from home I've been restricted I love you Grandmas and pas keep passin your years alive and kickin To my future I'm sorry I guess it wasn't meant to be What you had in store just won't be able to be sent to me I bet it was something good too maybe a millionaire To help my parents out of their struggle, just hold my will in there And if you can maybe give your plans to someone who really deserves it I know wickedness wasn't for me so bless the one who earned it To my father I'm not really sure how to address the situation I can't say how you feel about it but I hope you fit the stipulations For being a good father someone who would've raised me up To be the child you could be proud of even through the crazy stuff I can't tell if you were for my death although you didn't write it up And if you were against, you weren't against that much cause you didn't fight enough Finally to my mother, I have so much to say I want to ask you what made you think about this anyway Was it circumstantial and you figured I'd get in the way? Or would I have butted into your fun and thrown your life away What could I have done to change your mind from murdering me? You didn't give me a chance to prove I was close to living worthily Did you cry when you found out that I was placed inside your soul? I see you as a coward mom who lacks your life control How it's legal for you to do this is beyond me But I could've been Martin King, Malcolm X or Ghandi I could've surpassed Michael Jackson and scored more than Michael Jordan Ruled like Mandella but instead I'm reduced to clinical abortion You could've raised me to be strong and make you the proudest mother Teach me how to love my husband or for my wife show me how to love her I can't feel your kisses or hugs or warmth or comfort for my tears What will you think of me as you walk you path through the years? You could've gave me to someone else that'd grab me and hug me I don't know the boundary but is it too much to want someone to love me? I'm sorry I strayed off topic but I love you although you got rid of me My only wish is you don't kill my siblings like you did to me. I love you all.