Adolescence (C) 6-12-2011

Where did it all go I’m seventeen goin on eight I’m feelin’ great but it’s hard to fathom the time that has passed From watchin the Rugrats and Looney Tunes cartoons To bein categorized as a grown man, someone else is feelin this too I used to sit back and chat with Safire as a kid Tellin him all of the wondrous things that I did As if he didn’t know, he resided inside of my mind I changed his name a couple times, but Max was the name that would stick From creating an intangible entity that formed into me To writing a book about him, I guess he was the greatest friend to me But the title of the book isn’t the adventures of Max It’s entitled The mind of a man wishin he had his childhood back It’s crazy that only a few days I was at my grandparents spendin the night To cryin in my room hopin that my Grandpa’s alright Because my grandmother’s no longer there to cater to his every need Wakin up to sweet succulent biscuits, she always looked for someone to feed And through greed and selfishness I deemed her to be immortal So when she fell through that portal and left her life as a person I blamed her for being selfish no matter how much it was hurtin, But I’ll see her again someday but for now I’ll keep workin. I wish I didn’t have to feel this way, Everyday I think about world issues and will I live to see May Or 2028, how long exactly will I live on this Earth Will I ever find someone to love me and know what I’m worth Treat me like I did, to her, lookin out the same iris To holdin me knowin that truthfully I’m priceless And whatever I did she’d have my back no matter what Feels like I’m tryna see straight through a shattered cup. Because back in the day my biggest worry Was if the next episode of Arthur would hurry Or if summer would ever come, school was sickenin But now that I’m leavin I kinda wish it didn’t end My trials and tribulations at least made my livin style good But nothing can change the fact that I can’t get back my childhood