No Matter What (C) 8-22-09

I was upset pettily mad about nothing Choosing to believe that I was right in everyway Lost in my own thoughts and suspicions Over and over I think of you where could she be Vowing to leave her forever and never take her back Even though I knew I would I lied to myself continuously My mouth couldn’t speak but I had to say so many things Yelling silently hoping that I could tell myself I didn’t want her Opening my eyes would only release the streams of tears Understanding slowly there’s no way I could leave her Bringing myself to finally lay knowing she wasn’t there Some time later when I wake I see her sleeping in peace As I thought I couldn’t leave her she’s just so beautiful Races zoom through my head questions asking 'Really, could I really Again I noticed there’s no way we can part I love her How can I even stay mad when in my heart I love you? ' There’s no way I can give up now I’ve carried on so far, but Nothing matters after a point when you just say forget about it O how I yearn to speak to her just once at least to say hello It doesn’t matter I just needed to speak to her someway somehow Maybe in the theatrics of seeming to remain upset just something After a period of ignorance and anxiety I can’t take it anymore The thought of losing her makes even my soul tremble To even scheme just so she would talk to me I’d go through any lengths Easily but tediously my plan works never would’ve guessed it was me Resting as it seems she finally speaks she finally “awakens” me A smile spreads on the lips of my heart thanking God for my wily brilliance Whatever the matter was I pretend to forget faulting myself for this, My mind tells me that anger has taken over and wrath is in place, but How can I show wrath or anger it’s borderline impossible A moment of rekindling and my love is back my love is back Together again and hopefully forever she is mine I love you no matter what.