Meaningless

Sometimes you do things for others never realising what it does to you. It feels as if you’re helping them then realize what it has done to you. You get lost along the way withdrawing from the world and no longer having anything to say. Gone is that, that nurtured you as you turn your back away. Your world becomes a blank page with just one word written on it and that word is despair. You no longer have anyone to talk to and share your ideas. You recede into apologies for nothing that you’ve done. The comfort zone you once had is gone never to return. You slip into boredom that you once knew. Your life is filled with images, which are meaningless to you. Your stuck in a world that is neither happy or sad, but which is meaningless and empty. Your creativity has all but ebbed away and shrunk back into the void that once controlled your life and looks like doing it again. You wander through each day devoid of the things you need to carry your life through. It happened why you ask. The answer is not so readily available. Slowly you fall into loneliness where no thoughts are written down, sliding into an empty world where your voice is never heard and no voices come back to you. The world of desolation where you are no longer an individual, but just another empty drone. Your emotions have been drained away, your feelings are now gone. You face each day without caring whether it will be your last.