Painful Tears

There’s a ripping pain so deep inside I haven’t a corner within me to hide It’s tearing shreds from my very soul Leaving me in bits, nothing left whole My blearing eyes can no longer see For there isn’t anything sightly for me My hands can’t touch anything real As there’s no longer softness to feel My stomach is dead, all twisted in knots Veins are all black, filled up with clots My legs can’t hold this weight any more And my feet are nailed to this twisted floor My heart is wrenched, all bloody and still And a gaping hole in it with nothing to fill Washing it with painful tears no longer works As it struggles with all the tugging and jerks It’s all in my head and I’m trapped inside This feeling so deep that I wish I have died Trying to sleep is an escape I have been denied On a pillow soaking wet where I’ve cried and cried My body in pieces all tattered and gore I can’t take this level of pain anymore I’m imprisoned within all of this grief Clawing my way out for the chance of relief Give me the day when it all goes away But I’m scarred so deep it is here to stay Even though I know there’s a place to heal It’s not where I can go and I cannot appeal So bury me deep with earthenly clay Tomorrow is gone just like today I belong under this dirt where I will stay Not because I’ve given up…it’s just easier this way….