Heart Take

How much can my heart take when the heartache weighs it down? I am so close to heartbreak that my heart and lungs could drown! I am so close to dying of the pain that never ends... And so, what use is crying... or the comfort of my friends? To God I turn for reasons! Yes, I need an answer why... I've seen unpleasant seasons and His blessings pass me by! I've felt death's presence touch me! I've heard its loathsome laugh! I wonder will it budge me? Will it bring my epitaph? To God I seem to gravitate... or levitate above... To God, the Father of my fate, the Lord I serve and love... Yet will He answer truly? Or keep His silence still? Make me humble not unruly... though I'll grumble while I'm ill... The stars can't tell me slowly, nor the planets, sun and moon... Does God still want to know me? How I yearn to hear Him soon! If I have sinned, forgive me... If I have harmed, be kind... I plead, Lord, stay here with me! Or let my life unwind... Lord, I need to get an answer, otherwise my heart will break! Though what happens must occur, just how much can my heart take?