In Not Finding God I Find God.

When i am not able to find you my God i find you. In not finding i find you. Not finding God is positive. At the bed of a cancer patient i talked about God. He got angry with me. ‘Please stop this nonsense'. i wanted to go away. Then he turned and asked me when will you come again? I want your presence, not your talk about God. Before he died he told me I found God in your loving presence. I know and believe in God. We can never understand God with our arguments. Human intelligence is too small for that. That is why I did not want to hear you talking about God. In not finding God, God is present. He died on my lap. (Using the small 'i' is purposeful. This is not here presented as a poem. i like to present ideas that may help a man or a woman who seek the presence of God)