Today I Sat To Collect My Tears

I sat to collect my tears in an earthern cup and hid it carefully behind my smiling mask. I hid my sufferings and grinned at everyone on the way. They thought i am happy but it was a simple lie. I hid behind my mask my painful bleeding heart. Everything is torninside me. They saw only my mask. The memory of those who cheated me purposely carved my soul and heart. I cried silently and prayed. My prayer to christ was: Thank you Lord for helping me to join in your passion. They crucified me and i bleed. Today i want to pray: „God forgive them", but I am a simple human being. Please give me your forgiving mind.