At Rest

my garden is silent... and all the bees have sacrificed their very beings to the unmarked graves of flowers fallen. the squirrels left the trees like lovers spurned... and small birds left feathers in way of epitaph. in some ways autumn tastes like the bruise on my lips, that you left the last time you kissed me, the one no one can see! the old car in the drive, the one that wont crank, moans in the rust of betrayel. there are things i couldnt write, or even speak for a long time. it's funny how free you feel, with a noose around your neck! funny how sharp your eyes become, on the very edge of darkness. funny the sound tears make, the ones we cry inside. the creaking of the door, that opens into unknown. the way the hand feels, when it throbs for touch. by the way i saw Jesus today, with a basket in the store... standing in line to pay with food stamps, talking to a bent over old woman. and Aristotle and Plato, picking up trash in the parking lot... perhaps that was Rilke sweeping, or just a stray dog. and the young boy walking down the road and singing.... perhaps that was my heart, trying to remember your face! or perhaps it's just me, listening for the sound of your feet. my garden is silent.... my soul is at rest!