Looking (Meditation)

looking for awakening, i gave up, and quit looking, - the petals opened! i do the wrong thing, say the wrong thing, think the wrong thing, feel the wrong thing... so many times every day that it pisses me off! seems like the harder i try the worse i become! maybe i need to quit trying! looking for freedom, i gave up, and quit looking, - my chains fell to the ground! i walk down this same road again and again, and nothing ever changes! every time i get to the end it begins again. this really pisses me off! seems like the further i walk the further i have to go! maybe i need to quit walking! looking for redemption, i gave up, and quit looking, -and found the key within my heart!