The Infidel!

i am the one who walked with the Nazarene... who stood in silence, listening and watching. i distributed the food that fed the crowds, i helped the sick make their way to Him... i stood defiant as He cleaned out the temple. i helped move the stone from the grave of Lazarus... i shuddered among the lepers, put down my stone as He let the whore go... bailed water in the boat till He calmed the seas... i heard His last prayer at Gethsemene... saw and felt the tears of blood... more than anything i wanted Him to be more, to do more, maybe i just wanted to be Him! i am Judas, the infidel... i am you, you are me!