Don`t Know, , Till When...

don`t know, how to think.. or how to live... or what to do... feel like i live without goal... without aim... and the unknown future, which is exhaust me.. grin his teeth's to me, ..why? ? sadness killing my heart, and mind too.. and the tears dig my cheek... and the pains wring my chest.... i must know from the first, that, the life will not give me, what i want... so, , , why i dreamed, , , ? ? ? and why my dreams become more, and more than i can... and why i build my hopes, , why? ? ? all my life, looked for the happiness.. but, only what i found, the sadness and the pains... all my life, searched about my dreams.. but only found, the nightmare dreams.. all my life, searched for the peace of my mind, , but, only found the pains and the bitter`s afraid.. for how long..? ? o my sadly days, , and my poor life..? ? till when..? ? till when? ?