I Thank You, God

He had an inkling, but could not put a finger or even just a thumbnail onto it. And how, it did occur, would all this take its place, in history, the one he called his own. How much he had, of course it was unknown, a choice of unknown Gods but not unwelcome, so, fleetingly and with a thump dark thoughts would visit holding jolly hostage there were so many ends that would be loose for quite some time, dear God why is this now, not when I'm ready and why pick me, I am essential? I shudder when reality exposes itself like one of Geisha's little sisters, there is an education, within my head, my muscles have been trained to near extinction. Those bridges, caps and bleaching cream, for dazzling smiles and noble spectacles, my wardrobe, just completed, all up-market the kilowatted Benz with four-wheel-drive and don't forget the family at home, they would not have a clue nor will I give them one. And how, goddammit, will it happen if it does, will there be Cheyne-Stokes or will I fail to wake? Just, God, consider, if you will, that it will stop it is impossible to even think of this in earnest, what would you do if someone, like a bigger God did have YOU in his sights for dissolution, oh, no I am aware that all of us must leave what I don't like is being picked at petty random as you can see, I'm just advising you of errors that can be made within the heavens, I can see that this is one and no one will be all that angry, least I myself who only seeks correction. We shall speak later from the wooden bench in church. I will then thank you for your kind consideration as I believe with all my heart that must keep beating that I need years to start untangling my affairs and I adore you for your courtesy of listening.