248. Dear Diary 2005

Dear diary I have to let my thoughts out and you are the only one around who can bothered to listen without judging I need to tell you what is going on in the hope that you'll understand I have a darkness in my soul that I can't shift it's been there for far too long there is nothing I can do to remove it the problem is that this darkness is growing I have a burning lust for vengeance that I can't explain or satisfy it eats away at my mind sometimes especially when I am angry My moods are getting worse more changeable than a roller coaster and much more deadly at least with a ride you can eventually leave but I'm stuck on this one until I die I never seem to get things right no matter how much I try the failure is weighing me down as people only remember my mistakes Been accused of way too much shit lately that I haven't even done or wanted to even though they were never proved to be true people will just remember the false accusations I think it's time that I went now I do hope that you'll understand thanks for listening to me in my time of need I just hope you can keep this all a secret at least until the time is right before then you will always be my dear diary