Blunting Emotional Pain

I started cutting because of what my psychiatrist said to the Judge he said it may look foreign, a little bit frightening to parents that have abused their small kids for people that don't understand unhealthy emotional demands teenage mothers, unknown fathers in prison or jail secret cults that have nothing to do with the devil just because I know your son and or daughter better than you do and why they no longer can cry twenty years ago before she was born he understood why we are friends that now share secret smiles most are very smart we try to hurry growing up being Goth dressed in black shades of grey numb the pain feeding us a cocktail of drugs those same Judges and Doctors bought stock in. Pictures then of unhappy kids taken by they of our parents getting caught in the rain becoming pregnant again, going to Church making gross claims about their religion paying homage to the greatest cutter of them all calling on him their Catholic father and my mother his sister in Christ I grow tired of being their patient, being to sensitive those overachievers a regular child in irregular times with symptoms of borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorder, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia and all of their cuts I struggle to hide now from them.