However Mother Feels

She is approaching eighty the wooden bench in the courtroom feels as if so many years ago in church. When she had those four small children. And in her mania the world truly was a hyper womans oyster. On this day not long ago she listens to the court psychiatrist tell the Judge that this specific child is bipolar and schizophrenic and is unrestorible. She testifies to the medication and amounts taken how many past hospitalizations. She is not allowed to testify that this specific individual was raped hundreds of times in state custody growing up. The mother has no true understanding of what is being said as at her age to have to admit to genetic predispositions. And from where it came. With no intention of knowing. You can take the hillbillies out of the sticks but you can't take the sticks out of the hillbillies. Then her youngest who she protects has been decade's acquiring traffic infractions and now is habitual. Some where some thing terrible went wrong. And this is the south where you are asleep awake or not.