I Love You, I Hate You

I hate you, I love you I hated how you drank so much, I love that I dont I hated how you did me, I loved how I did you I hated the way you did our kids, kids loved the way I treated them I hated how you used my meds, I love that I stopped taking them I hated that you were vain, I love seeing I no longer am I hated that I did your job, .I love that I learned some thing new I hated that I forced you to get help, I love my daughter as a result I hate that you made me run for my life, I love the people I met Here I hate how you made me love you, I love you for my freedom I hate that I had to do all the cooking, I loved what I cooked I hate looking in the mirror I might see you, I love looking at new me I hated that we were the same size, I love and needed to gain weight I still hate you, I love myself even more