Niggers And Crackers

In the mid sixties Cracker it exploded out of all the racist mouths and then the word Nigger never far under comes out of the dark covered with out shame. Even as a child of seven being placed in Lake Magdalene juvenile home they were allowed to admit others up to age twenty one. Deep in the south it was Tampa. I weighed thirty five pounds and next to me watching soul train he asked me to touch his monstrous dick. I was terrified I am white the black cottage father that very night took me out across campus to live with he and his wife. Confused at age twelve my step father from Chicago ask me and my brother to canvas our neighborhood to sign petitions objecting to what was to come desegregation and black children being bused to the then white schools. Unable to articulate or explain the severity of our dysfunctional child hood to a Judge whom did not care to abuse your children as it was then the norm it was acceptable. I being grown now I after having seen my step father call black people niggers as a child now know just how wrong now I feel. Being in the deep dark institution called the south. And about what each person has need to call another out of hate when it spawns the hatred it calls up from their fear. It taught me this about how to talk to my daughter and then stepson. They never heard the word cracker or nigger from me.