Suicide Is An Option And Why

My depression is as deep and dark and many mile's wide, As the oceans I've swam, where other's have simply just died. A little about the mental health proffesional people I've met And yes I still see, Cannot offer to me a safe stable place where I can live and be free. Are those like me not worth the investment it takes, To save these lives in need. Or let us die and be collected like garbage to be cremated, Out of sight of thee, as though we were never seen. Free from threat's, free from harm and from those whom yell That cause me to shake, where my memory then flees from me. Some of us need less, other's need more as I am One of the unfortunate less from me they expect more. When in talking to them about any of this, Keeps me under constant threat of being Baker acted. Leaving me worse off after being released with Nothing and no where to go. Worse than that there's nothing left here for me to see! When being honest about the truama I've faced Truama that other's have faced, trauma they couldn't endure. Sarah Teasdale, James McLain, Beyond hope, beyond life and your pity will send me off, Beyond the dark sky Out of reach of the light in this hopeless life were you live. Hang on they say, hang on, while All here around us other's are leaving now, having it all Did not to them make any significant difference when if living My life, I should have left this wrechted life much sooner. So to you I would say that in respect to me, the sky Is to large and surrounded the dark yes the dark has fallen on me. Am I a coward for staying to long, I hear the bell tolling my life, Yes it is ringing for me. One life is all I repeatedly hear that one and all shall have. Here alive to live with, what the church and their sins I've endured. Society has now seen that the suicide rate reflects Their lack of values on those human beings just like me. The sky is dark a reflection of me, my sky is dark a reflection on me. My new case worker took me again to, Where they want me to live, With people who have harmed a child, That some will do again, I would just rather man up and let this life go. Because there's no one whom cares about me.