The Need Of A Ventilator

I was young dumb and in love, After having served six months in jail I thought every thing was as it was before. Of course it wasn't, She was with someone else. I picked a spot the farthest away From a hospital. I purposely took a bottle of psychotropic Medication, The next thing I knew I was in the E.R. Looking down at myself as I saw and heard What was going on around me. I came out of the coma two weeks later unable To move on my own of course my hands were tied down. The ventilator was making me breath at a rate Unlike my rate of breathing not my own. I was in extremely good shape and very strong, Before my release I was forced to see a panel of Three psychiatric doctors. I was asked if I still felt suicidal to which I replied. That if I ever as such then I was that I would Use a gun next time That was thirty eight year's ago and without A ventilator I would have died again twice having Been D.O.A. when I arrived. Having been brought back from death was an extremely Personal experience, And for a great many year's after that when I Thought about that I would cry.