I Must Of Deserved It

Did I do something to deserve all of this? My eyes are no longer the shining diamonds glistening captivated you They are angry crimson they hold much sorrow My skin is not perfectly soft and bright as an autumn dawn sky It's the leaves that have fallen hard and withering My lips are not the perfect red like rose petals They now rarely but smile My mouth once kissed so delicately Now hold words spouting poisoned venom My body was held so tightly and caressed so gently Is now scarred and damaged My heart was bursting with enough love for a universe Now it's a black hole a void A beautiful flower without water wilted and died Yes I deserved it