One Old Man's (And War's) Dilemma

I know I have to live, the old man said, having just lost his entire family to war… But how do I go one living when I have nothing to live for? How will I face the loneliness each evening…the heartbreak of each dawn? How will I go on…when all I have…is gone? Where will I put my grief every time hear their names… knowing my broken heart will never beat the same? How will I separate my sorrow while protecting their memories each day? How do I keep those memories from ever fading away? How will I find happiness again and not buckle under the strain? How do I ensure your hate will not start running through my veins? How do I keep your hate from winning when I'm so angry…when all I want to do is cry? I'm not sure how I'll do all this…but…for their sake…I know I have to try. I will try with all my heart not to let you have my hate…and all it's accompanying sins… Because I know first-hand how much there is to lose… the moment hate begins.