Before The Sunrise

I can not revisit, What is no longer there to feel. That excitement once sought, Today from me has faded away. And some days I would pray, For that spark to come back. And other days when reality is present, So glad I am no one is near... To witness and hear my knees crack. Or see me twitch from an unexpected, Pain traveling through my foot. Or have my keys in my hand... And wondering where they are, Since they are not hanging from the hook. To keep me reminded! I can not revisit, What is no longer there to feel. That excitement once sought, Today from me has faded away. And it seems to me it was just 'yesterday'... When I didn't have to look down to wonder, Who or what will it take... To get me lifted before the Sunrise. However... Sometimes to myself I will admit, A wish for this... A devoted companion to assist my efforts... As I reminisce what's missed.