Fear Of Being Intimate...Again

I'd never thought as I aged, I would feel 'more' romantic. Maybe it is because I hadn't had that in years. And my fear of being intimate...again, Speeds quickly to a fade these days. It is fun as well as frightening too. I am no longer a child. I am well into my 60's too! Who knew it would be like this? Living alone and happily single. Then 'whoa'... What IS this? I am wishing to be intimate? In a relationship? I thought I had donated my feelings... When I sent them packing and they went away? I'd never thought as I aged, I would feel 'more' romantic. Maybe it is because I hadn't had that in years. You know... THAT? Someone around just to nag? Maybe I am going through a 'phase'... And will soon wake up, Before I find I have done something quite foolish. Like commit... To a delusion.