I Can'T Let Go

When do I begin, To say 'enough'. And let what has troubled me in the past, End! What addicts me to revisit, Emotions still raw... To self inflict? Only I seem to sit, Prepared and ready for conflict. Holding onto a bitterness, I can't let go. Although I must quit! What initiated it? I don't remember that at all. I do, however, recall wanting to play baseball. And 'someone' shouting, 'He's too young! He can't hold the bat! And besides that... That kid is too small! ' When do I begin, To say 'enough'. And let what has troubled me in the past, End! Especially those things that happened in grade school. When I wanted to fit in, With the other children! 'Uh, grandpa? Snap out of it! You'll be fine. Somethings take a little bit longer than others. But you will be okay! ' Too SMALL? I'll show them! Note: Some of us 'do' harbor ill feelings for far too long! Maybe beyond the ridiculous!