I Hate You With So Much Love

I hate you! With so much love. I no longer deny it. How could you leave me? How could you decide... Your life lived without me was best? For who? I hate you! I hate you keeping me up at nights. Wondering if you are being treated right. If whoever you are with now... Know what you like and that appetite of yours. I hate you for making my heartbreak. With aching I can not shake. I look and see your face... Everywhere and every place it seems. In my dreams I am pleading that you stay. And when I awaken... I realize you have actually gone away! I hate you for doing this... To us without a ponder. But a quick dismiss! I hate you! With so much love. And I know it is that 'me'! That 'me' I need to fix. Will you give me a chance to do it?