There Is Nothing To Gain

You ask... How has my perception changed? Over the years, I've endured... Heartache, disappointments... And the healing from personal pain? I have managed to grit my teeth. With no bitterness to show I keep. And a smile that reflects a happiness, Inside of me I deeply feel. However... There are kept moments I will not reveal, When I stay awake at nights and I can not sleep. You ask... How has my perception changed? Over the years, I've endured... Heartache, disappointments... And the healing from personal pain? Well... I have learned there is nothing to gain, By lieing to myself to leave tears on my pillows... Without washing out the stains.