This Day (For Carmel Azzopardi)

It has been a while since you passed away Still my heart aches for you It's almost spring Yet still, too cold to visit you I think of you often But it's this day that my heart hurts the most Because you were at yr happiest With a special meal and birthday cake You didn't need gifts to feel important But for everyone to get together That's what I remember And yr goofy 'Homer Simpson' smile is All I can see When I close my eyes at night I imagine you there locking the door Like you were trying to save us From the cruelty of the world But you're not here And I am lost in that ritual Of making the house safe Even for only myself