Scares Me Really

The darkness — the darkness within – the darkness that surrounds me I thought it was a dream, But it has been a long time now, and I did not wake up. I saw myself falling, Falling… and falling… and falling At first, my pinnacle caved in Like a cake upon which the oven has been opened too quickly, (Those that made me were impatient, and I came out undone) But it didn’t stop there; I caved in on myself - Like the death of a star, I destroyed my being Taking all my light with me… into my new world of darkness Many good goes in, but nothing ever comes out I have become a black hole That’s not visible to others, as I live in a world on darkness.. Laying within my breast, juxtapose and between my breath Is the centre of my new being- A heart that has been stained with the darkest darkness And filtered, so that all that which was good has been removed from the blood My blood no longer supports this thing called life, For Life’s definition no longer lives within: I may be standing, I may be walking But, I assure you, I am not living. Trills no longer bring me laughter, Or excitement Nor hardship or death, Sorrow My existence has just been brought to naught, And this shell has just a memory of the place where me used to be… Do not come near me For your light shall be sucked in, and then your entirety And you too, shall become this thing that I am. Copyright © 2008 Leslie Alexis