Husbands Faith

out in the cold again, her cold heart will not bend. i give her all the love that i could possibly give just to see if her feelings live. but, she will continue to fight and rave and holler then i don't even bother. so many years of marriage and it's going down the drain when you can't speak to each other that's a crying shame. you try to talk civil, and to correct the problem which has come up. but! the fighting continues so you decide to shut up. you feel your heart pulling and being yanked out of your chest and then you begin to wonder if this is just a test. they say that sometimes the LORD can be a joker, he will tease you and laugh with you and stick you with a poker. but! it is just to see, if your faith in him is strong for that is where faith belongs. so i close my eyes and think of the faith within, and i begin to wonder 'did i commit a sin'. i think of all the pros and cons of the life that i am living and if there is something more that i should be giving. did i give support when it was needed most? did i turn my back and close a deaf ear or did i show how much i really care. these are the questions that i have to ask and to try to remember something in my past. marriage is a sacred vow, made before GOD. and we have to continue to fight no matter how hard.