A Letter To God

Dear God Who I am You know better Mahtab Bangalee is nothing else just a name on this earth, a little human residential planet, I live in the bay of Bangle Dear God wherever I go whenever find nothing without natural existence someone said You are shapeless almighty existence shaped everyone and everything is Your reflection, under Your controlling and separated You are from these everyone and everything You have no synonym on this earth someone said You are shapeless almighty existence, yes right, but You are existed in shaped everyone and everything or shaped everyone and everything is living agents in Your imperceptible existence existed shaped all are Your pure synonym and someone said You are nothing, just a mere word in fearful mind, cowards care, bear up You in their beliefs (lazy brain or confirmation biased thought) Dear God of these, I know nothing intuitions make me an unruly thinker sometimes excessive emotionalism, sentimentalism, extravagance thinking, eccentricity makes me enervated debilitated believer I'm defeated everywhere Dear God I confess I'm guilty, a knave I bow whole my body, every limb to You I confess I don't believe the prophecy, Your revelations, Your prevailed orders, commands I confess I'm a skeptic of all holy religion books but without seeing You I cannot acknowledge Your shapelessness sovereignty my intuitions provide me if You created all why You need to destroy one by another if You created all to help each other why You need to be worshiped from created bar Dear God I confess I'm blameworthy hellish bury me lively, bury my egoistic intuitions, the arrogance of time and timeless bury my wayward conscience, strayed commonsense bury the spirit which taught me to think only I'm the best pious, closest to You Dear God penalize me in the judgment cage of iron maiden burning thorns punish me when I belittle Your other creations punish me when I pray You to damn into hell the others who do not follow or believe what I follow or believe Dear God penalize me on the scaffold of magma maiden burning noose when I doubt Your true revelation of love for all, penalize me when I make inferential correct constitutions or theology for Your whole creations by intuitions grammar Dear God punish me by guillotine under Your high voltage sunlight when the knowledge of my theology makes me blind follower and forgetting humane conscience, sympathy when I make me busy to go to heaven hasty Dear God I know, for me You have no forgiveness, mercy this also I know, Your ultimate punishment will be forgiveness as the merciful almighty though I have heard You hate those who belie You, hate You but I love Your all creations as well as You equally if my love and there You are true please forgive me -December 02,2019 Chattogram