I Am Afraid To Be Afraid

I am afraid I left the lights on. I am afraid I didn't close the windows. I am afraid I didn't lock the front door. I am afraid I didn't complete the census or send it promptly. I am afraid of my impermanence. My own shadow. I am afraid now of what's around the corner. I am afraid I didn't pay all my yearly contributions. I am afraid nobody is going to love or care about me. And to be asked at the doctor's to cough. I am afraid I might die alone. I am afraid to leave home. I am afraid to be afraid. I am afraid of social interactions and niceties. I am afraid of enclosed spaces. I am afraid of the dark and people's unwanted baggage. I am afraid of dogs and black cats. I am afraid of heights. I am afraid of thunder and lightning. I am afraid to linger too long in your arms. And look hopelessly into your eyes. I am afraid you might not like me enough, Enough to make me fall irrecoverably in love.