Occasionally Broken

With an unsupportive family and fewer and fewer friends I've been strong and occasionally broken I've been brave and I've been fearless I've been lost and directionless I've been waiting for an end ever since the beginning looking for a reason to continue or not there is always a knife twisted into my guts it feels like I am always at war wondering what it is all for is there even a soul in here worth fighting for? And as each day begins and ends I've said amen, amen! My question is there even a fifth of my heart left still fighting for life reaching for all those distant stars. Lord, knows I want to plot a new course And reach a righteous end.