Wondering Just What I Did Lack

You heard me swearing I was half-crazed my heart was breaking it's time to separate. Done all I can do … time to drink those last few drops of cyanide time, I saw the world anew. Look the blind, can't lead the blind any more than I can carry on loving you, your heart, your love is a crushing avalanche there is no more purchase nothing left I can cling onto your walls are sheer your cavernous heart long emptied. Filled with ice, occasionally hot springs that freeze on touch circumvent new labyrinths in which to pour out, spill out your guts you ask forgiveness, ask for kindness my support, for love and understanding only to deceive - there is a vast open country then later forget the warren-paths you've made, you turn into a grinning polecat putting back on your one true albino coat I now sadly wear as a hat wondering, just what I did lack.