Can A Mom Just Say It's Over?

My throat won't stop constricting, I just can't look away. I really need to talk to you yet I don't know what to say. I will not let the tears fall. I'm stronger than I look. You've never given credit for the strength survival took. I know for you it's over. A mother you'll never be. Disgust exudes from every pore... each time you look at me. It's too much to consider, there's too much in our past. You feel it's not worth trying cause you think it wouldn't last. It knocks the breath right from my chest when I think of what won't be. How does it feel to know you've caused me so much misery? I wake myself up crying for the mom I'll never know. You know how much I loved you, but still you let me go. Will you ever try to love me... maybe try to be my friend? Did you think we had forever... are you glad this is the end?