0086 The Radiance

a radiance. sometimes you can almost see it. those who see it keep it to themselves or take it for granted, as a sort of birthright, though sometimes, later perhaps, or even too late for you to hear or to themselves with regret as of a gift withdrawn remember it and marvel you yourself – does it ever dazzle you, or is it too soon followed, smothered, with some guilt, a burden born and borne? or for a moment, quiet at home, dazzled, ecstatic, heart melted by that radiance? you, sitting so still in the waiting room or patiently standing at the bus stop, in a crowded train, radiance withdrawn, disguised as no-one, anyone, everyone; mother