! A T - O N E - M E N T

‘Atonement’ – for me, it has a solemn, lifetime, deathtime, this-is-final ring to it – spoken in the severest tones in some headmaster’s study in the skies… and you, feeling that this is the last chance to rake up all your worst, your very worst memories that still chill your heart after all these years, so you try not to think about them… so, to ease the sense that fate’s about to pounce and is it really true about hellfire… you look it up in the dictionary …. no, it must be some clever pun… no, it’s there in black and white and Oxford blue… at…one…ment… oh, how pure upon the page the words here rest – look now upon this book, sweet masters – see how the angels smile at human guilt… there’s joy in heaven today… just… that… you mean, it’s really that simple, and all that stuff from the past…? so I can just… oh wow… ‘Sorry, I can’t come to the phone right now, please leave a message and I’ll ring you back.. I’m having my daily at-one-ment…’ and maybe one day, if I work at it, someone will say to someone else, seeing me walking down the street, 'Just look at him, or if you're lucky, talk to him - don't you admire his cool, his here-and-now, and his at-one-ment...? '