! ! Impressionism In Paint, In Music, In Words

To know the impossible to be impossible and yet to love the attempt; to demonstrate that beauty is eternal, yet seen only in that moment now, never to be captured, ever changing - 'evanescent' holds a little of the sound of it - this, the heroic failure that betokens love. Monet was that hero. For perhaps you may catch beauty's shadow in a photograph; even glimpse its joy, there, in the sound of song; but try to catch it - dab by dab of brush - when in the time it takes to do this, yet another leaf - there, watch it as it drops - has fallen from that distant orange-yellow-brown blur of an autumn wood - knowing as you render nature's generality or catch a church, a haystack, in a sundown glow, that all things pass - that love's heroic: and when, in irony that surely needs no underlining, blindness comes upon you, yet you go on painting, as the water-lilies blur into the water-weed, into the bridge, into the time that runs down to the river, to the sea... and in turn, Renoir, in his 'Moulin a la Galette' dance-cafe, catching the human reflection of this flow, our yearning for the perfect moment to remain, frozen, set, fresh-baked, forever caught - this is what my life has led to, this is what, surely, I deserve - under the lanterns in the trees the young girls with their cheeks of peaches, apricots, and lips like fruit that's waiting to be pressed, dream of forever to be loved; while their tonight's men smoke, and drink, and dream of where a young man's lust might just be step into another world - while in that room up there that looks down on this scene, Proust, seeing the cafe's dance of fleeting beauty, writes to catch those moments lived and lost and yet remembered; and Debussy, his tentative composer's piano notes heard just above the cafe's resident accordionist whose sentimental music you too will remember to your dying day, and smile a gentle tear - and when past midnight, as the silence falls upon the thinning dance, and couples, singing, arm-in-arm it home, and Monsieur le patron extinguishes the lanterns in the trees, and the humble workers' square is suddenly a nowhere place, Debussy will hear the moonlight sliding through the window onto the piano's keys... of beauty, we can say not much of all that may be said. (To Michael Gessner, who reminded me about poetry.)