As I Lay

As I lay there dying You are somewhere not crying As you know not where I am. I ask the Lord to forgive you Then I ask him my soul to soothe Finally his glory I do understand. I think back when we had met I was full of happiness and no regret But that was so many years ago. But then you forgot what I did for love Not for him or her, but only for us And the love in my heart that once did flow. As I lay there bleeding You are nowhere near not weeping And how happy I am just for you. I fought this battle now I’m all alone Your sins now you must atone As for me there is nothing else I can do. I take a walk inside my mind Once again to a different time When I wore a smile on my face and heart. Again your actions come to my brain As I remember them all once again How I wish from life I could quickly depart. As I lay there all alone Knowing everywhere you go you are known From the lies and sin that you have done. I close my eyes and take a deep breath As though its my last, it I excitably accept As I wish and hope to see another sun. But I still see and think about you As I worry myself with the evils you did do As I lay there all alone just sighing. I want to enjoy my last hours on this earth Before they bury me in the cold, cold dirt Now I end up with you in my mind denying. As I lay there with my heart slowly beating I feel my life from me is fleeting Slowly I take in my very last breadth. I think of not the future put the past How I stood sturdy and steadfast And how in life I had just one regret. I close my eyes for the very last time No more writing poetry or reading a rhyme As I fall in forever sleep in my bed. Another day it will come and go And about me one thing you will never know That somewhere, I now lay dead.