I Am Alone

As I walk within and about my house I think of the bad people that would like to do me wrong So now I lock my doors and windows before I go to bed As my forgiveness is short, but my memories are long, In the past I have been called too trusting of a man I try to believe what is told or what is said to me I think no one would deliberately cause me pain or harm But then sometimes my vision is clouded, so I cannot see, I truly would rather be surrounded by an enemy Than being with a lying, untrustworthy person or friend As I am prepared for a strangers schemes and also their lies So against them and their ways, I am ready to defend, In life we all are prepared for pain and hurt and lies When it comes to us by accident or from someone that we do not know But when we receive it by a friend or family member we are in shock As we cannot ever understand the reason, for that ugly blow, I turn off the lights and then I crawl in my bed and I am all alone Now I truly prefer to sleep with just my pillow and me As I have been in bed with a woman that I had loved long ago But she proved to be antagonist, so now I sleep with nobody, It would be much better for anyone to grow old all alone Than being with a cheat and a liar to the very end Now I don't have to worry about betrayal and lies any more So sleeping alone in my situation, I would greatly recommend, I don't ever want to wake up with a knife in my back And I don't want to wake up to anger or hate I don't want to wake up to a love who now is my foe When I wake up, I want to arise with a love that won't deteriorate, So now as I lie on my bed I think while I try to fall asleep I still have nightmares and memories that hurt and chill me to the bone Strangers and accidents they no longer worry or bother me But the fear of the betrayal of a love frightens me, so now I am alone. Randy L. McClave