I Would Not Cry

If you should die, I would not cry Sadder words I never have thought In my heart there is no feeling So to God I pray for the healing But sometimes, I think God has just forgot. I cannot forget the sins that you have done to me While you were my soul and also my wife I can still feel all of your using Along with your with your cheating and abusing And how you destroyed my soul and my life. We were once one, as we were joined by God But you weren't happy with that type of living, So then again you started telling your lies So you could get the pity for you to survive And once again because of you I am grieving If you were here, I would not shed a tear, As I have already shed them all for you I would not ever look upon your face As now all I’d see is shame and disgrace The word lady and woman you never knew. I thought you were a loyal and trustworthy lass And a great mother that was well worth knowing Now you are not teaching your daughters well Will they too follow you example and strait to hell As without change that is where you three are going. That journey you take you will not go alone And that happens to be a matter of fact Along yourself and your girls you also will take All the sinners and the ones God will forsake And also the men that kept you upon your back. If you were dead, I would lay down my head And sleep in a nice and gentle sleep As all my nightmare's would be gone And once again my soul would be just one And for you, I would never ever weep. I would wear a smile, upon my face And again happy thoughts in my my mind and brain And I would not ever think of you any more I would forget the words slut, tramp and whore As God would of cleanse me, with his falling rain. And that day when your day will finally come In front of God you will stand alone He will tell you that you had died And for your soul no one had cried And sadly heaven, will never be your home. I would of mourned, when you were born If only I knew the type of life that you would live, With all of your cheating and your lying Letting your soul starve, and allow its dying You stole and took, and never would even give. They say we cannot change who we are And we will always go back to where we came, As a cheater, you will also be a cheat In this life, you will be a liar and full of deceit You were born in agony and now live in its pain. The life you have led, has been a hard life on you You change your looks so from all you can hide But you are known by your ways if not your name As everyone knows their scars and remember their pain And you are my pain, so for you never will I cry. Randy L. McClave