On My Deathbed

As I lie on my deathbed Thoughts and memories start entering my head, With all the hate and anger that I held I wish now that they all could be expelled. But, they can't; As I lie on my deathbed. I think of all the people that I have hated Now, into my thoughts they all are now fated, The prejudice and the evil that I have brought Sadly, to others it I had taught I wish that I could recant; I think of all the people that I have hated. Thoughts and mistakes become much clearer Especially when death comes nearer, Why towards hate was I ever driven Could my soul ever be forgiven. A hymn I wish to chant; Thoughts and mistakes become much clearer. I now look through the eyes of others Of sons, daughters, fathers and mothers, I see them persecuted and ridiculed and harassed for fun And I see me there, as a rerun. I grieve and I rant; I look through the eyes of others. Life it is so very short Why did I become the devil's cohort, I remember how biased and vicious that I once was Now, I hope to go to the place that is love. Poison I did plant; Life it is so very short. As I lie on my deathbed The Bible again to me is read, Is that an angel or a demon that I see Did God or the devil accept my apology. I begin to pant; As I lie on my deathbed. Randy L. McClave