A Child Once Said....

Today is a challenge to be met, but fear sets in and takes a seat, wondering how to get through and not fall prey to the sadness which always comes anyway. Writing on and on, music filtering through, grasping the deep hurt being felt, trying to tear it away from a body where it's been held captive for so long. Pain filling within, a vulnerability never felt before, taking away what has been causing so much grief through- out the years now being welcome. How do you get through it, there are no solutions or plans, being inactive far too long, mind asleep, numbed by sadness held within. Child-like, turning to someone else to know what's needed to be done, helping to tear away this inner dilemma in order to live life freely. Knowing how much has been missed in life, ready to tear and throw it away, for what in the future nothing can be known. Looking empty, bleak, desolate just like inside a darkened hole, being just a child before, thinking that if they'd had friends it would've been nice to spend the night like other children have. Having no idea what that would've been like, hearing the other children talk of it, what would it have been like to have someone take a hand and let feelings of safety fill every particle of their being. Having friends, going shopping or to a movie, maybe to a park to play, discover dreams or maybe swing, friendships being seen seem to encourage discovery and new experiences. Inspiring self-confidence and worth, a person that would be there if you asked, one who wouldn't limit or bind an inner freedom and doesn't want to control at all. A child once said...if I had a friend life would have been more fun, I think.