A Father's Miscarriage

Standing in the background, not really knowing what to do, trying to hide his stark-naked feelings inside of himself. Wanting to let go, cry and hug his wife - instead he stands there bleeding alone inside. Fear written in his eyes, a fear that everyone will think it's all because of him. Standing idly by as he watches his wife go through the pain of a miscarriage all by herself. Denying her the ability of talking to him about how she feels, he steals away. Outwardly, he doesn't even try to ease the sadness or show he cares about her in any way. Coldly standing aloof, trying to hide the shame he feels inside, walking out and going to work. Putting on his uniform of control, he can handle things again, because he separates this other life - himself - from thinking of it. Being much too immature to become a father, needing to learn how to be a husband first and to communicate with his wife.