Awful Way To Feel

Being totally in a mood of belligerent feelings, not wanting to talk to anyone, being insolent within myself. Not saying a word, because I may say the wrong thing and hurt someone, an awful way to feel, but knowing what caused it. Trying to control my emotions, although it's very hard to do, feeling anguish and sadness within, not able to get rid of them right now. Just writing, hoping to dissolve all those bad feelings, because they are very uncomfortable, causing me to feel uneasy within myself. Poetry is an escape interiorly, helping me to surrender it all so I may feel at peace once again, feeling free to find my way in life.